What I've Learned ( For Now )

What I've learned in my time here is that people are selfish. A few are selfless and even fewer would tell this.
The majority abhorrently rejects the minority so it's easy to justify quickly calling the authorities.
We all have friends but we call them associates; they associate with your enemies with your business to negotiate.
Young girls Pro-Create, let astray by a media. Sex sells, learning fails, and society suffers a tip in scales.
I've learned that being Black doesn't mean that we have unity. We'd rather argue skin pigmentation than take over the Nation.
We'd rather fight over shoes made overseas than oversee our futures. See, this is how it shouldn't be.
This is why it couldn't be all I have to learn. Too much knowledge to be gained and too much wisdom to be earned.
I'll continue to observe, grit my teeth, and discern. Pass my knowledge to my lesser, and see them rise. I've adjourned.

Virgin Lungs

I don't really smoke, but if I did, it'd be the perfect time. Thoughts run reckless across my mind while I indulge in tasteless wine.
Too pessimistic for smoke and mirrors so I'm static while others chase the signs. Some vapors in my presence might dilute this refined state of mind.

 Inclined to align to others past times but I must declined. That glazed over, hazed over,  look you display can only fray the mind.
Dull steel can't cut the layers of the sky and ascend to higher space in time. I'd rather stay sharp so I can fillet these ties and lies that bind.

My thinking is 30 stories up so I guess I'm always high. Didn't even need a Philly or a Swisher, or a lighter.


Just my mind...

A Lapse in Thought [Failure]

A lapse of thought leads to flaws in judgement. You cover your mistakes and hope they never go public. The public ask questions and you're quick to change the subject. Failure overshadow your success and leave you open to the dumb shit. Now your names in question so you know where the blame's rested. Got you sick to your stomach like a case of indigestion. Then your friends fall back but all your enemies got suggestions. The hint of your downfall got them aroused like erections. Vultures hanging up overhead, circling the skies while the people that once supported you await your demise. They don the black suits and shift their little ties while they toast to my funeral with malice in their eyes.

All it took was a single lapse in thought. A flaw in judgement.

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Tilted Crown.

I don't mind if you looking down on me, shake your head and frown at me.
I've been down before, you see, so your thoughts are just a crown to me.
I'll wear it with contentment but inside me is resentment. You said you'd support me and truthfully I gotta wonder if you really meant it?
Was it just a conversation? Something to do to pass the time?
"I'll tell him he's awesome. I'll tell him he's fine. As long as I'm eating. He's paying. His dime."
Tell me you love my writing and you've never even read it. Just because it's in your Inbox doesn't mean you've check the message.

Just because you said you loved me doesn't mean you never second-guessed it. So I guess my question is 'Why do you feel that I'm a bad investment?'.
You didn't feel that way when we were up with the late-night conversations. Or the texting, or the sexting, or the sexual relations?
I'm can't wait to hear this shit...I might die from anticipation! To hear what comes from between those lips will be the GREATEST Revelation!!

Oh, now you're quiet and you're silenced. Your gaze cast down to the floor. Funny....
I use to be down there, but not anymore.
I'm standing on your level, better yet, I got you by a couple inches.
I believe in me now. Now more so than ever. I'm actually a bit pretentious!
I've grown past you, and past you. So you keep on looking down.
And keep this, you can have this back. I've outgrown this Crown.

Love & War.

They say alls fair in Love & War, boo, yeah that is real.
And we're both scarred from our past so I guess Love -IS- a Battlefield.
We both said we weren't built for no relationships, that's the deal
Makes no sense why I got a sword and this tattered shield.


We got together, boo'ed up, settled down, and moved in.
Your ex ain't like that. Screw him. He fell back. I moved in.
I stayed here, we stayed clear. You had trust. I had fears.
We dealt through our issues flawlessly. We got time in. Bout 3 Years.


Bey said 'Love it, put a ring on it'. So I went to Jared next day and got a piece with a lil 'Bling' on it.
Put on that Alicia Keys track and let her sing on it. And gave it to you wild. Unthinkable. Think on it!


Funny how we started from not really wanting much, to admiring our irises with breakfast and sun rises.
You told me you was fertile so I expected no surprises. 9 months later I'm watching as the head of our son rises.


And I could only love you more. Never felt this way before.
I had ice around my heart but you just walked in. Open door.
Other girls, I can ignore. They can beg or just implore.
You was the only one who helped me up when I was left laying on the floor.


Held me down strong like a Queen is really meant to. Baby, you're my Goddess. Now lemme bless your temple.
Spread your legs, arch your back, I'll beat it to the tempo. Rough in the sheets, but making love to your mental.
Mind sex. Timeless. Time out, Time in. I pick you up, you lay me down. I tickle you, You run around. I catch you.
I caught you.
I paid dues; I bought you.
We're in this together, it's our life.
I lucked out; you're -MY- Wife

A Man's Regret. ( Rear View Reflections )

Yeah, I'm sitting in the crib actin like I don't miss her. Noticing with all her shit gone, the spot a whole lot bigger.
The problems we went through was enough to make you move out and break pictures, but I'll be damned if I see you shining with the next nigga.
All pride aside, I'm a man first and foremost. So when you left, I ain't beg, I let you dip like a Lays. Let you slide on the praise of you doing it on your own.
"You ain't shit without me, bitch, move without me. You're grown!"

Never really thought that you'd split and leave me out here all alone.
So I'm calling you back to back just to argue on the phone.
Bringing up old dirt just to throw it in your face, but you hitting ignore on me fast, like you putting me in my place.
You got some real nerve, girl, yo, you really out of pace. I always kept you two steps behind me like you in a losing race.
Now you're 3 steps in front and you're really gaining space. I guess you got mistreated for too long and you're tired of the waste?

Aight, I wasn't the most respectful and I called you out your name. Maybe I chuckled at your dreams and kept laughing at your pain.
And I was real reckless with that thick chick from Texas, but all the same. That's no reason to submit to all the pressures of the pain.
And I realize that I'd revised the way that I'd would treat you. I'll refrain! And the fact that I grabbed you, shouted, and hit you, I'm ashamed.
But I've been with you since we graduated, sorry that I get aggravated. But those dudes that flirt with you on Twitter just really get me agitated!
I got a quick temper mixed with unstable ass emotions... but don't let my outburst outweigh my level of devotion.
Pain makes you cry rivers but between us lies an Ocean. And I'd brave any waters out of pure will and compulsion!
I know these sound like excuses that I'm using 'cause I'm useless but I'll use them to renew the flame that passion that we're use to!
All I need is a sign, some recognition, or a call!

Until then I'll regret, reflecting on the last picture of you on our Wall.

Kanye West 'Power' Freestyle

Just because you understand doesn't mean you comprehend and just because you didn't come in last doesn't mean that you win. And just because you're a Saint doesn't mean you can't Sin, so I won't abstain from the frame of mind that I'm within. That means I'll change and remain, time and time again. That means I'll grow and rampage again till I transcend. So I guess I'll rage, guess I'll grow, attain more power, attain more hoes, attain more knowledge so I can prophet to the lost souls emptying their pockets! The medias Lost it. The blind leading the blind, man. These devils are overtaking our kind, man! Break free of the the cycle so you can shine, than. The most dangerous weapon is still your mind, damn. If no one man should have all that power, separate it, divide it and let us find it. Either that, or lead em, become a Tyrant. Either way, the Dawns coming, so let's get violent!!